Ok guys. Lilipat na talaga ako ULIT ng blog. Any momentum now guys. Haha. Balik tabulas, ibang username. Ang makahanap..........CUTE! Joke. Wala rin naman may alam nito e. Noh? Haha. Masyado na kasing historical ang blog na ito. Tancha nyo? Noh?

I came across Maria's blog and she got this from Anj. Ehk.

The most important, most critical component in successful loving is commitment. Not love.

It's easy to love without commitment. People do it all the time. Easy to love, to give of oneself for a while. But commitment implies bonding in such a way that one promises to keep the fires of love burning indefinitely.

It also means shutting one's heart to the possibility of loving another who might even be more attractive, even more lovable. Not easy.
This is why solid commitments are not at all as common as we are led to believe.

In fact, more often than not, I think that the commitment two lovers make are not equal. What I mean is that the commitment of one might be a whole lot more or a whole lot less than the partner's. We see it all the time. One loves more than the other and is more committed than the other. It is false to believe that two lovers love each other to the same degree.

We have often seen lopsided love relationships where one partner is giving so much more to the relationship than the other. But writers and poets seem to always indicate that love isn't just a two-way street, but an equal two-way street. That hardly ever happens. It is impossible to determine exactly how much a man loves a woman or how much a woman cares for a man.

Love cannot be measured and that can be a huge problem. You can love someone and tell him "I love you" and you're telling the truth. But how much do you love him? Enough to let him court you? Enough to marry him? Enough to die for him?

The greatest test of true love is commitment. And the greatest indicator of deep love is deep commitment. 
There can be no doubting this.

I have heard people say all the right words, Make all the right moves! and pledge undying love, only to walk away weeks or months later. Were they in love? Sure they were. But not enough to allow them to hold strong in their love. Not enough to keep a commitment regardless of the pain.

A lover gets this sinking feeling when there is a sense that one is more committed than the other.
When one is giving a lot more than one is receiving. When one's love is a lot more solid than the creaky love of the partner. When a couple believe strongly that their commitment to each other is rock solid, there is a deep sense of security, a feeling that it's OK to give all because the gift of yourself is safe in the hands of the beloved.

If, however, there is doubt or, even worse, the conviction that one is engaged in one-way giving, in a one-way commitment that is lopsided, then there is a tendency to pull back and not give as much. And when that happens, love begins to fade.

In the countless counseling sessions I have had with troubled couples over the years, there has always been the problem of a failing commitment on the part of at least one of the partners. Unless there is the raising of the level of commitment, the relationship is doomed. It's finished. Sooner or later the stresses will take their toll and the relationship will begin to fall apart.

On the other hand, look carefully at lovers who are still very much in love after 20, 25 years. Their commitment to each other (CAN BE TESTED) but cannot be shaken. Neither can their love.

Destiny is not a matter of CHANCE, it's a matter of CHOICE. It's not a thing to be WAITED FOR, it's a thing to be ACHIEVED.

I think I ought to change blogs again. Ngeh. Gulo guys.

Friday and Saturday was spent with the people I love. Naks. =)

Friday was a normal school day. Camie came over so we could go to Melai's place because that was the meeting place. San ka pa? Anong oras kami umalis papuntang Greenbelt? Mga 10 na yata guys. Haha. Pagdating dun, nag-Ice muna kami bago mag-Red Box. Umaasenso nako guys. Nakapunta na kong bar at nakainom kami ng kung ano ano. In all fairness, umikot ang mundo namin kaya lumabas kami't nagpuntang Red Box. We sang the morning away while drinking so much iced tea. Haha. And at some point, we realized that our playlist was full of senti songs. Weehee! Haha. But of course, walang tatalo sa Stop stint namin. Feel na feel namin na nakatayo tapos........Haha.=) We got fetched at around 330am then we went back to Melai's house to continue the celebration by watching Closer until 6am. Pero nakatulog ako nun. Nonetheless, the night rocked.=)

Camie, Melai, Dang, Issa, Hayde: MAHAL KO KAYO! Thank you guys!! =)

Saturday night was spent for Miko's debut. I got to be with Circle again! Ang iingay parin. San ka pa? Haha. So much fun. We each got crowns because we were Tinkerbells. Weird. Hehe. But still, spending time with people I haven't seen in a long time made me happy. Sayang nga lang inaantok na talaga ako. Haha. Mahal ko ang Circle.=)

At siyempre, Sij, thanks for agreeing to come even if everything was so last minute. Thanks for the night! Mahal kita!! Hug. =)

I have to learn to accept that I am not blessed enough to be able to wear a tube ever again. Haha. DOUBLE.STICK.TAPE.

Can we go back to the days our love was strong
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong
Can somebody tell me how to get things back the way they used to be....

Haha. Binitin. Panalo ang On Bended Knee. Song of the weekend? Haha!

To be continued....

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Ok. Ito ang continuation guys. Haha.

We heard mass and like any other mass, I tried listening to the homily. Today's homily was so......haha. Guys, it was about letting go. At mahal ako ni God. I imagined myself crying if not for what happened last Saturday. Zeeryuzhz! Haha. I don't usually bring my phone to church(I leave it in the car) but today I did. So, I brought my phone out to note down quotable quotes. =)

St. Agustine said: If you love someone, let him go. If he comes back, then he's yours. If he doesn't, he never was.

If God pushes you off a cliff, let go. Because he'd either catch you when you fall or teach you how to fly.

Saya diba? Iiyak talaga ako kung hindi dahil sa Sabado. Pramis! Iyakin akong bata. Haha. =)

Tomorrow, I will not see my Centavos. Huhu =( Miss ko na kayo, mga cool na katulad ko at ni Nikki love. =)

Gusto ko ng banana que at carioca. Aww Killers I miss you. =(

Circle. Yehes. =)

ADVANCED HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANG!!
and like all my greetings..<3, vix and sj

I am going to see them later. We are going to Greenbelt and will be sleeping over at Melai's house. Haha.

Anyway, the past days were "hectic", in all fairness. I can't remember Tuesday. No wait, Fil Prelims. We studied 4 units at 1 unit lang halos ang lumabas. Teehee! Wednesday, we watched the play. It was good. Really good. May look-alike si Amy, my classmate. Haha. May look-alike din si ****, my "friend". And Bulan was hot. Noh guys? Haha. Anyway, the play ended at around 10. Ayun. Ay wait, bago ako umalis ng bahay, considering na late na ko sa "date" namin ni Nikki, may isang bataalyon ng aso sa labas ng bahay namin. It was then that I discovered the wonders of my umbrella--it shoos away dogs.=) Thursday, I "studied" for the Math Prelims which was this morning. No comment. Ang mga pangyayari ay.......malabo.Haha. Gets? De. Oh well.

And for the first time in a long time, someone acknowledge me as right. As in tama ako. Ehk. What an accomplishment. I'm so proud. Bleh. =p

I'm off to pack. Ano ba. Wala pakong isusuot. Pano pag di talaga sila convinced na adult na ko? Whatta waste of precious time. Hehe.

At guys, I was home at 1:30pm...ON A FRIDAY. Ang cool ko talaga guys.

Parang gusto ko rin ng debut. Full blown debutante's party. Pero mas ok kung kotse nalang.

Pero feel ko mag-eend up ako sa walang iba kundi, birthday cake at happy birthday. Haha.

Do something great!-cast ng play

Guys eto ikkwento ko buong araw ko. Matagal ko na kasi hindi ginagawa ito. Haha.

Ok na ulit guys. =)

Hindi ako magkkwento dito. Shusmi, private. Diba Sij? Hehe. Pero kung close tayo, siyempre ikkwento ko...somehow.

Thank you, Sj. I love you, you love me, we're best friends like friends should be. With a great big hug and a kiss from me to you, won't you say you love me too. =) Nyaha. THANK YOU. I LOVE YOU. =)

July 28

La na. =(
But Dear, please, please do know that I love you.

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July 29

Guys, (with the accent na guyzzz) chinita ako pagpasok ko. Pwede nang Julie Lee, guys. I woke up with eyes so swollen I had to wear my worn out eyeglasses and put on some concealer to cover my eyebags. But of course, magagaling ang blockmates ko. "Umiyak ka no?! Bakit?!" Yung iba, sinabihan. Yung iba, sminile-an. But in all fairness, napigilan kong umiyak buong araw. Hanggang luhaan lang today. Smiling outside, hurting inside. =( But thanks dear classmates for telling me that.......basta. Kahit di naman ako masyadong sang-ayon dyan, salamat. Mahal ko kayo.

At sa Centavos na pinatawa ako't pinangiti, sobrang salamat guys. Salamat sa index card na napagkamalan kong invitation sa debut. Salamat sa mga kantang pampatama. (haha) Salamat kina Ginny, Nikki at Chezka na kasama ko sa 711 (the place to be) at kasama kong kumain ng sandamukal na pagkain, kausap tungkol sa kabayo at aso (bad bad bad) at paginom ng.............Hep. MAHAL KO KAYO GUYS(z). Tri-ny talaga nila akong i-save from seeing Lando, but then again, I just had to shout out its name and do what I did. Di naman masama yung ginawa ko e.

Sa lahat, thank you from the bottom of my broken heart. Mahal ko talaga kayo.<3

Naiiyak ako sa starting video ng Wake Me Up When September Ends ng Greenday. De,actually naiiyak ako sa lahat. =(

I REALLY LOVE YOU. =(

Di ko 'to gusto, pero wag kang lalayo. =( -Session Road

It's so hard for girls.

We can't make a good move because it makes us look too desperate and oftentimes pathetic.

But heck, I want to fix us.

I just need you to help me.

Because I can't do it alone.

I so miss you.

And I so love you.

I may be the most emotional person right now, but I don't effing care.

Please? We can fix it. We can, Sj. Faith, diba?

I still love you. =(
Please don't do this.

Wow. I've managed not to blog for a few days. =)

I've been so emotional lately and I know why but I'm not putting that in here. (Anong lately? Past month and a half or so beybeh) Please don't blame me. Not now. You put me here. We were in this together. Eh asan na yung together? Di ko mahanap, I'm sorry. I want us to work. Help?

On the brighter side, I got to go karting in the rain and I got to do donuts on a kart. That means I got to spin around several times because it was raining and the track was wet. *smiles*